"
Mary Astor's Journal"by
John Koethe
T
he infamous "Blue Diary" of the thirtiesAt long last purified by fire. Only
In New York could the body be free enough
To completely turn over its passion to words
Too stupid to ever conceal.
"His first initial is 'G'---
"And I fell for him like a ton of bricks."
Arriving by plane in L.A.
She found him but recently dressed,
Arms bare in the rain. "Gosh, it's so
Perfectly hard!" she breathed on her ticket.
And then: "What woman was happier, ever?"
In 1935 Arletta Duncan, the Harvest Queen of Belle Plaine,
Iowa, decided to bow out. She collected all the memorabilia
of her Hollywood career and made a great bonfire in a va-
cant lot in San Pedro. Then she mounted the gigantic, lethal
letter "H" that was part of a development sign spelling out
HOLLYWOODLAND, and nude, facing the city which had refused
her a crown, flung herself into the air. Her leap landed her
square in a clump of prickly-pear cactus, where she was later
discovered, "a broken body hiding a broken heart"--her tale
typical of many others.
O desert night!
The magician leaves, cruel fire descends.
His final weapon in the showdown:
"I need you," through tears,
Dumbly connecting the words through smoke
Until finally the pleasure is ours.
From Domes (1973)
Used with permission of the author.